ivy, be happy no matter what

i realized whenever i put my heart into something, i always get hurt and heart broken. i put you first, in front of everyone, in front of myself. sometimes i really wish i could stop caring and make you feel the way you make me feel. that horrible pain in my chest when i just want to cry my heart out but realize that no one cares. can you open your eyes and appreciate what you have right in front of you. i have so many more things to say, but nothing will get through to you. so i'm gonna stop writing this post.